haven't felt like it

No writing for me lately. Ever since my fucking pc downloaded some ass-kicking virus that knocked it down so bad I had to turn it over to an IT guy.

From an e-mail to Emily:

Also, I think I'm pretty sure I want to go to mortuary science school. I really must admit, I don't want to have to go through all of the nursing bullshit that includes entrance and exit exams and state board licensing exams. Today I got a letter from a program that rejected my application citing that my grades weren't "competitive enough" for their school. That's totally cool, whatever. I'm so tired of being stressed out, trying to "compete" with thousands of other people around me and being miserable because some shit test says I'm not good enough. Even though I know that I am. I'm beginning to think that perhaps, I'm not meant to be a nurse and that God has designated some other path for me out there. Is any of this making any sense?