compelling you

I can't talk enough about how much the last two days have totally rocked my face off. Yesterday, a fantastic hike in "the church of God" followed by a super Holy Thursday mass where I just felt so humbled in the presence of the Lord and all he has done for me.

I try to remember always that no matter is happening to me at a particular time in my life, God has a plan for me. With each passing day, I believe it more and more. Words are turning into actions as I surrender myself to Christ a little bit more each day and as I learn to trust in Him. Loving God is so easy, letting go and trusting is difficult no matter what anyone says. Now I try to think of myself of having done what He has asked of me and now is my time to leave things up to Him and I just need to keep walking on the path that He has laid out before me.

Today I cried in church again. I really don't see how more people don't. I don't know why I do and I will try to think of anything to prevent eyes from welling up but I'm not successful most of the time. Today I thought of something scientific to take my mind away from faith and it worked for about a minute; long enough to stop the moisture and take away that burning in the wells of my eyes. Because for God so loved the world. SO LOVED THE WORLD. That kind of love is massive. I can't even sacrifice an eyeshadow or part with ten dollars...

Tomorrow is Holy Saturday and I love the church at night. I love it when its dim and its just me and the Lord. Relaxing in his glory.